I don’t wanna go

Well, well, well, it’s late so what do you expect? Another blog !! but don’t worry this is a quick one, just some food for thought.

So, I know you’re probably thinking this title doesn’t sound good, but I’ll get to it don’t worry. BUT first I want to tell you just a small glimpse of how good God is. So recently I’ve been getting really sad about leaving home for nine months (typical) but have also started to get some pretty serious nightmares about it. But throughout all my nightmares I kept waking up to the word abide in my head. I was not thinking too much about it because I just thought it was weird but then it gets even weirder. The same week every time I prayed I just kept thinking to say “Lord help me to abide in you” and I didn’t even know what that meant. This continued for a few weeks without me thinking too much about it (because I’m very slow to see God trying to tell me something if you having caught that theme throughout my blogs). But this past week I came back from boot camp (world race training) down in Georgia and one of the days we were talking about John 15 about abiding in Jesus. So I’m like ohhh shoot what the heck is this about!?? So, of course, me being me am like okay Lord I’ll make a deal with you if you tell me what this even means to abide in You then I’ll do it. So at this point, I was pretty homesick and was kinda over being away from home, and thinking about having to do it for nine months was/is a scary thought. But then the CRAZY part happened. A girl in my group said “my bible has something really cool to say when defining the word abide. It says to abide means to find a home in Jesus”. At that moment I knew Jesus was saying Naomi I am your home. It’s about time you stop worrying about your earthly home while you’re gone because I am your home. Well, well, well, if that wasn’t a slap in the face. But such a comfort. My home is where Jesus is and if He’s not going before me I don’t wanna go. Like Moses, in the desert, Jesus went before him night and day, and Moses abided in Him. So my prayer tonight is that no matter where I am I never forget where my home is. That with Jesus before me I’ll go, because he will lead my steps and build my home. Because His plans are not my plans but In Him there’s safety, and in Him is home. So I wanna go where You are. And the reality is I might have to read this every day to remind myself of where my home is, but if that’s what it takes to follow Him I will do so. I wanna make Jesus my place and bring Him praise.

Okay, if you take anything from this just know God is so tricky (good), and He will get your attention when He wants. Just wait on Him.

“As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love” (John 15:9).