I think to say heart broken is a understatement. Oh, Jesus I’m so thankful. Every step of the way I see you preparing me for this, and you continue to do so. You are my comfort and I need your hugs right now, because the people you gave me to lean on and learn from aren’t here anymore and it’s You and me once again, so I need a Jesus hug ya know? You are my portion when I don’t feel enough. You have answered every prayer and have been faithful every step of the way. The aching doesn’t stop but the break will, and I beg you to help. My people are home but you are my home and I know you will care for them way better then I ever could. Thank you Jesus. It’s time to take up my cross, and taking up a cross is always hard. But God for you nothing is a sacrifice so please remind me of this. Jesus, I pray that in 9 months all the stories I tell are about how close you were to not only me but my people. I miss them already so thank you. Thank you for the love. Love that is connected through the spirit, which is unexplainable, but deeper then anything. All the people you have blessed me with, have all showed me more of you in so many ways. My people are first and foremost Your people, so love them more then ever please. Jesus, you know my heart, and my heart loves so deeply that sometimes I wish I didn’t. But this is who you’ve made me to be, so help me to love the people I’m about to meet. Your plans are always better, just remind us all of that. Jesus thank you. Every step of the way. You are enough. Oh man, it’s hard and I’m so sad, but may I never forget what you have done and will do. You give and You take away, but may I always praise you. Thank You for Your love. You weep with me and I feel you. Psalms 117 “Praise the Lord, all nations! Extol Him, all people! For great is His steadfast love towards us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever. Praise the Lord!”. What do I have to offer to such a holy God besides thanksgiving and praise? Jesus in Your word you say you comfort those who call upon you, so Jesus that’s a deal. I’m calling and crying loud for You. Be near. In order for you to me near to me, that means being near to my people because we are all a package deal, so thank you. I’m not alone, you and me and always the God ordained family you have fighting this battle with me. Unexpected, but so needed. I can’t do this alone, it hurts too much, so it’s time to let my faith be bigger then my emotions. Because God if your not done working, I’m not done waiting. Because we all know God is greater then the ups and downs…ya know what I mean? So Jesus let me meet those children in Africa so I can come home and tell my little sisters all about the African dances we did. You are a friend and a father, because love has no borders; and You gives good gifts.
Wreak me for your glory. May I always suffer if it shows your goodness. I have besties in America, stay close please??
Always you and I against the world
2 Corinthians
Matthew 5:4
“He said my presence will go with you, and I will give you rest”
Dutermoney 27
Matthew 9
He gives good gifts
If He dresses the lilies with beauty and splendor how much more will he clothe you? If He watches every sparrow how much more does He love you?
Oh the stories you’ll tell
Not the healthy but the sick
In Your presence theres fullness of joy
In You alone my joy is found
no one ever cared for me like Jesus.
Time to be spent
Feels like paper heart
Exodus 33:14
James 5 pray
Revelation 21:1-4
This is my surrender
Search the upper room
I’ll miss your sweet face.
THANK YOU JESUS.
Can’t wait to hold you tight so soon.
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I’ll be crying in the tub till then.
This is hard
Pray harder
Every step of the way.
I know this may sounds like scrabble, but this is my heart, and Jesus sees the inward, so may it be apart of my testimony.
